IM ALIVE!

Oh God. Finally i am online. I feel so disconnected from the outside world throughout this past week of being offline. I have tonnes of work to do so all my time is spent with going to college, cy, friends, homework, study. Amusing how i still sleep more than 8 hours a day and still feel really sleepy. 

Sleep too much.

Anyway, i did a psychology test yesterday to test whether my character is more masculine or feminine. And i am leaning more towards the feminine side. Yay! I dont see why someone should be upset about it if their test scores prove that they are more feminine. So what? Even more if you're a girl. If you're upset, it means you have the mindset that being feminine is weaker than masculine. So demeaning right. Actually nothing what, it just actually means that your character is more feminine lah. Each have their own characters and traits.

Hmm..i think i didnt blog for too long. I dont even know what to blog now. I write more often in my diary because i am personal like that! haha.

Actually got. My sister's bf bought a toy poodle puppy!

!!!!

My first expression was like this =O

Then =)

Then =S

Then =D 

Haha. In detailed, i am shocked because it is so out of nowhere. I was doing my homework like a good girl (lol) and then my sis came back and stand beside me with a senyum kambing. My back was facing my outside sliding door so i had no idea she brought back a puppy until my mum came out looking like =D and said teddy lei jor!! haha. means teddy is here btw. Then i turned expecting to see the ghost of teddy or something, and it's really her. A mini her standing at the door. =)

And then the cage is cleaned, and everything is reverted to a dog friendly house again. I am quite not ready yet. Need time to take in okay. So weird. Just the day before, i was missing teddy damn alot and was feeling really sad of her death and swelled up. =/ Hmm. Like it's all planned out huh.

Anyway, i should be HAPPY! =D She is really small and cute. She dont walk one. Hop around like bunny one. Damn funny watching her. She so excited. I have a feeling she is more active than Teddy lol.

Hmm and i brought her to the vet yesterday. Feel damn mixed inside when i told the vet it is a new puppy. Not that the vet said anything but i feel so self concious. =( Hmm. Whatever. I stand on my ground. It is not like we think that a dog's life is not precious. Of course it is. Teddy is a part of our family, of our lives. We're sad and angry of ourselves too and we know it was our fault for not being careful enough. =( But it doesn't mean we just play play simply simply. We're giving our love. We still can have another dog and love her as much equally. So i stand on my ground.

Anyway her name is Kiki! Other names for auction before this is Camry (my mum suggestion lol), milky, sandy, gucci (LOL), and bunny. Her colour is off white. Abit creamy and have patches of darker colour at the body and head. Pictures when i can take a good picture of her! She keeps moving around lol.

Till next time. Hello mathz....Integrating trigonometry!!!!! 

Miss u miss u

AT LAST it's thur-ur-urrrsday. Waking up everyday at 7 am drains the soul out of humans. Now no more teddy greeting us in the mornings =(. College has been the same so far. Two news: one good, and one bad.

Bad: My grouping changed =( from a day off on Friday to no day offs on Friday. How sad =((

Good: My grouping changed =) more familiar faces and friends in this grouping =)

Always two sides of things. Anyway, last tuesday, something really random happened. Some wacko guy distributed 'invites' to his birthday party to girls. It goes something like this:

sweetheart/ cutie/ lady

i hate guys..they are jerks..

come to my party..all girls..

countdown my birthday..

come in your party clothes..poolside party..

peninsular hotel..10th floor (WTF!)

fuck 9-5 jobs..fuck dunnowat

Damn random -___-. Got people so free wan. Hmm i wonder if anyone would go. Sounds like a sex party.

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Haih, i miss teddy alot =((. Everyone in my family is missing her like crazy. That day my dad said he is very not used to eating now because teddy is not here to share food with him. Truth is, whenever we eat whatever at our dining table, teddy will be standing up and putting her hands on our thigh and look us in the eye like this:

Believe me. She's cuter than that. And my dad will beh tahan and give her lotsa human food. And i always nag him =(. Now wanna give also no chance already =((

The same thing goes too when i am studying in the living room. She will come outside to the living room, fetching her tennis ball, and then put in at my chair. Standing like just now i said too. =) she's the one who will accompany me in the living room when i study.   

Then whenever she walk, her butt will sway to left and right. Seriously damn cute wan xD. It goes with the sound effect 'tutt tutt tutt tutt'. And she have this scarf that she likes to wear, she looks really pretty in it (L).

I am not bragging when i say teddy is the cutest dog in the world =) because she really is...

Sorry teddy =((

Teddy, please visit me in my dreams so i can play with you again ='(. Im not asking for everyday, once a while also i very happy already =)

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More cute pictures with horny from a very belated cny dinner. Those of you that dunno who horny is, he is my cute cousin baby a.k.a. Ong Tze Honn (lam zi hon tai jeong fu haha) [it means macho btw]. Yeap cousin baby T_T. That means when he's 16, im gonna be 32 wtf.

Pan cute betul.

This is not horny but my dad singing. haha say hello to papa.

Then horny wanna sing too. Choosing song lol.

'Im the best singer in the world!' *clap clap. 

Btw, im the one who taught horny how to clap!! haha =D *proud.

**Shit i bit my gum twice when chewing gum T__T damn pain. 

That aside, i really gtg mm mm nowww. Coming out already lol. Disgusto

How life sux without you

I think i had calmed myself enough to write this post. It was sudden, unexpected, shocking. It was quick, too quick. It was tragic. It was very, very sad. I cannot describe how i felt at that time. But it happened: Teddy got hit by a car on 24th Jan, and passed away. Our carelessness =(((

I am sorry teddy. I hate the word sorry. It is so helpless.

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I want to live the memories i had with teddy, and also my family. It seems quite impossible now, but i am afraid one day i would forget about her =(. For sadly, she only had less than 1 

year with us. A year full of wonderful, happy memories. Too soon, too young to die. And also, i want people who didnt have a chance to know her personally, to know more about her.

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Teddy is a very active girl

She likes to play with ball, especially rubbery ones. And she likes to jump here and there. She once jumped up a tv table, which is like at my waist and about 2.5 times her height, just to get a ball. She have no fear of heights. She likes to experiment new places, often standing up to get a better view of what's on a table, and such. She knows how to play fetch naturally, we didn't even train her. Too active in fact that she cannot stay still in our arms. And first time visiters often says she's too kua cheong in the way she greet people, jumping here and there. She likes running up and down, even when she tercungap cungap, she will still insist us to throw the ball for her to fetch and play. And she runs reallyy fast. That cost her life =(

Teddy is a veryyyy pretty girl

You would know this yourself if you had seen her or my phone/ facebook. She's not vain at all, in fact, she dont even look at herself when she is in front of the mirror. She hates grooming, and also us combing her hair. Au natural is the best for her. She is naturally beautiful, inside out. She is always photogenic, and seem to be smiling in pictures even if she is not.

Teddy is an anti social

Among dogs that is. She prefers human company. She is veryy affectionate with humans. Everyone would be happy when they see the way she greets them. I know every dog does this, but no one is like teddy, i swear. Especially when she wags her short tail. It is very cute. And she really does seem to be too overly excited. And for quite long too, about 5 minutes. She loves everyone, even strangers. And vice versa of course. She loves company. She cannot stand loneliness, she'll cry when she's alone. Teddy, i hope you're in a company full of humans who loves you. She really touches the hearts of everyone close to her. And teddy loves us to bits. We love you too.

Teddy is very manja

She loves her backrubs. She beg for us to bring her out, to let her follow us, wherever we're going. She loves attention. And she always french kiss us. But smartly, she wouldnt kacau babies, or the elder.

Teddy is very cheerful

She is always happy. Teddy brought the happiness to the house. Having teddy increase my happiness level twice. Everytime i go home, i will always see teddy standing by the door, greeting me with her happy face, and wagging her tail affectionately. And she always seem so eager to have us. She is also very happy with the littlest simplest things. Things we often overlook. Like eating ice-cream, going out kai kai with family, going out for a walk in the park, having a new toy. Everyone feel her abscence throughout the house when she is gone. And she always amuse us with her cute actions.

I MISS YOU TEDDY. I love you.

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I now dont cry anymore when i think of teddy or when i look at her pictures, although i am still sad. Even when i blog about this. Honestly, i dunno whether it is a good thing or a bad thing =(. Seem like too fast. But i know it is thanks to you guys, who are there 

for me when i am going through this =). If not, i dunno how long would i take to heal. I would definitely still be crying =(

I seriously miss you teddy. How i wish i could bring you back. Home is really different without you. 

I am really sorry teddy.

RIP teddy. We love you.